Nicole Kidman Seemingly Hints at Keith Urban Split: ‘You Think You Know Where Your Life Is Going’

As far as the world knew when Nicole Kidman sat down for her cover story interview with Vogue, she and Keith Urban were happily married.

By the time the article arrived on Wednesday (Oct. 8), however, the actress had filed to divorce the country star after 19 years of marriage. But while she wasn’t able to directly address it during the cover interview, Kidman may have hinted that all was not as it seemed.

In the piece, writer Wendell Steavenson recalls, “When I asked about how she felt now, in her 50s, I had expected to hear a nice, trite response about the sagacity of age.”

“Instead Kidman was wry, rueful, unsure of herself,” the article continues. “She said: ‘How many times do you have to be taught that you think you know where your life is going and then it isn’t going in that direction?’”

Shortly after the interview took place — and about a week and a half after the Vogue story was published — Billboard confirmed that Kidman and Urban had separated. The former filed for divorce on Sept. 29, citing “marital difficulties and irreconcilable differences.”

The filing included a parenting plan agreement naming the Golden Globe winner’s home as the primary residence for the ex-couple’s two teenage daughters.

Neither of the stars have publicly addressed their split since, though Urban did recently make headlines for changing the lyrics in his song “The Fighter” — which he has previously said was inspired by his now-estranged wife — to shout out his guitarist, Maggie Baugh.

“When they’re tryna get to you, Maggie I’ll be your guitar player,” he sang while performing on stage with Baugh, as opposed to the original words: “When they’re tryna get to you, baby I’ll be the fighter.”

But while Kidman may be feeling a lot of uncertainty at this time, she also told Vogue about how excited she is to be exploring her passions as an actress — and possibly a writer in the future, she revealed. “So much to say and so little time to say it,” she mused in the interview.

“About death and life and joy and grief and loss and sex and why we’re here and what is truth and is truth even necessary,” she continued. “What is the future? Do we even care? Are we living in a dream? What is reality? Where are we going? Why do I keep working? Why stop? You’ll have to tie me down, tie me up!”

See Kidman on the cover of Vogue below.